Your Groupies

[Only Me]

So this may not make any sense to anyone but I thought I would share it anyways... i wrote it the other night... and while some may want to commit me afterwards other just might get it... lol.

For too many years I have only seen your reflection
The reflection of you staring back at me in my mirror
A stranger, an unknown little girl
crying, screaming, begging for a way out
Wanting, needing, clawing, scratching her way out
These hidden scars, covered by my alternate reality
The one where you don't exist
The one where I am the normal one and they are all the product of another's imagination
nine lives, eight wrists, seven pills, six bullets, five ropes, four gallons of water, three knives, two broken glasses
But only one heart, one head, one body, one soul
Why have you not killed me yet?
So many chances, so many attempts
Only I see the marks on my wrists, the holes in my chest, head, the ring around my neck
Only I feel the water filling my chest, lungs, suffocating me
Only I see the darkness closing in, feel the pain
Where do you disappear to after the damage has started?
You and your groupies need to leave me alone
leave me to kill myself off
Get out of my head, leave me alone
I don't need your help
Why do you not dwell in the head of another, screwing with their reality, messing up their life
4:30 in the morning and I cannot sleep again, wide awake again
you and your groupies never cease your nonsensical murmurs in my head in my mind
Just go away, leave me alone
You are not welcome here anymore
no don't stay. Go away.
So here I am looking in the mirror once again, seeing only you
Can't get you out of my head, mind, soul, body
"just deal" the professionals tell me,
"here take this pill. Oh that one doesn't work well take this one then."
you remain, through all the sleepless nights, through all the long days. You remain in my head, forcing me into an alternate reality.

[stupidxgirl]

Well, I for one understood it, but it all kinda blended together for me LoL. It was hard to tell where one thought ended and another began. But the message was certainly clear enough I liked it actually, reminds me of the way I used to write before I stopped writing for 2 years...and now I am just rambling so I will stop that. I think my favrotie part was this.

"nine lives, eight wrists, seven pills, six bullets, five ropes, four gallons of water, three knives, two broken glasses
But only one heart, one head, one body, one soul"

It was very interesting and not your boring typical choice of words. It was long, but it was a nice read none the less.

[Only Me]

I'm not sure how to explain it... but it was actually several people talking not just one... so that may be why you found it difficult to follow... um. yea. I wish I could clarify a little better, but I can't. not tonight. not right now.

[thecrazybeautiful]

I was gonna pick out a favorite part, but there were quite a bit of good ones. It was kinda hard to follow at parts, but for the most part it was good.

[Laura]

I am going to quote the same thing as Bren:

"nine lives, eight wrists, seven pills, six bullets, five ropes, four gallons of water, three knives, two broken glasses
But only one heart, one head, one body, one soul"

--however, for me I really enjoyed "six bullets" ... just the words are strong. The last line though, I felt, should maybe only be "only one heart" or "only one soul". I think it would be more effective if you just picked one of the ones (haha, I'm confusing myself!!)

Good job though it's interesting.

[Only Me]

I tried it as "But for only one heart." But it just didn't seem to flow for me. That's what the unedited version said lol. then i think i over thunk it.