No Smile on the Outside In

[Laura]

a/n: I wish you could format on this site. The _____ are tabs. The brackets are meant to be softly spoken.

No Smile on the Outside In

I feel like being sad today
let my words slur
let the sun become a massive blur
in the melon shaped misbehaved world

what could have
______ (what did)
happen...

and I'm going to begin a phrase and never end it
and I'm going to become a figure but never paint it
and I'm going to believe that I would have been
______ (should have been)
a better mother than you.

keep the strayed frills at the edge of my dress
let them rip and tear a little more
hope
______ (maybe pray)
it cuts right through to my skin

listen little girl
you are not a child anymore
what you should have
______ (what you never)
said

I can't sing like the songbird I once was
let all my good things go
along with what I had inside me
that was what was left of you

a photograph
faded from fingerprints
too much rubbing
and crying underneath the sheets

I guess I was never wrong
______ (or right)

I'm going to begin a life and never end it
I'm going to become a liquid and never drink it
I'm going to believe that I would have been
______ (should have been)
a better woman than you.

take me down
there is a river on the east end
let me drown in its current

see you
______ (wish to)
on the other side,

somewhere
I know you're still whispering
a lullabye in a child's ear
who was
______ (and is)
a better daughter than I was
______ (than I am)

and I'm going to begin a story and never end it
and I'm going to become a focus and never look at it
and I'm going to believe that I would have been
______ (should have been)
a better person than you.

[thecrazybeautiful]

I really, really like the "and I'm going to" parts. All of them. They bring a bit of irony and sarcasm to it, I think.

This is probably one of my favorite's of yours. I can't even really explain why. I just... really like this.