*~"Good-bye Dad"~* F/B Please...

[allmeheart]

*~"Good-bye Dad"~*

This has not been edited so please ignore grammatical errors. I would say its raw emotion, I just said what I had to say. I don't know if its okay or not because the topic is so emotional for me that I can't really form my own opinion because I knew what I meant by all of it, please let me know what you think.


Dad you promised things would be different
Told me the drinking would stop
Yet somehow everything is the same
I walked out on you once
Ruined my own Christmas Day
Never meant to forgive you
Call me the fool
Dad you became too violent
Busting down doors
Breaking glass
I couldn't take anymore
I'm told you passed out
As soon as I left
You lost it all that night
But I guess that didn't matter
Because you've made no effort to change
Do I not mean enough to you?
I lost it, I went insane
Fell into depression
Believing it was all my fault
Blame me, you know you have before
It no longer matters
Yeah, I recovered
And for you those memories faded
Let me tell you though
Scars don't heal as quickly
Relapse lurks around the corner
Trust me, I'm telling you the truth
My cries fall on deaf ears
You're lost in your own oblivion
Back to where you were
A place where life doesn't matter
And your only daughters a stranger
Or sometimes simply doesn't exist
I won't last much longer
In the vigerous game you forced me to play
I forfeit, quit while I'm ahead
My luck lasts too short a time
I'm ashamed to call you my father
You're a useless Son of a B****!
Sound familiar?
Mom said it, you didn't hear
You were busy gulping down your poison
Out in that secluded shed
You shut us out, refused to cooperate
She got a divorce when I was 6
Yet I was left with you
Stuck in hell, until now
I'm soon to turn 14
I'll choose to get away from torture
But slowly I'm falling back into this trap
Where escapes don't exist
And your persuading my feelings
Winning me over with your wicked ways
Damnit Dad leave well enough alone!
I will never recover
With you breathing down my neck
The smell of alcohol on your breath
I'm giving up again
This time I won't return
So go back to you world
Forget that I'm alive
I'll be better off, I swear
Just go drown your problems
In the bottle that you let rule your life
Its not my fault anymore
You blew the second chance
Good-bye Dad.


~Jessica~

[Laura]

I'm sorry that this is close to you ... I don't really want to comment on it because of that. But this:

"And your only daughters a stranger "

--is really sad

[stupidxgirl]

Sadly, I can relate to this in a sense. I know we all deal with pain differently, and no one situation is the same, but I grew up with an alcoholic mother. She was very detatched by the time I came around. My 2 sisters had a completely different life then I did, they grew up with a careing, loving, non-abusive mother. I would say sorry you had to have that kind of life, but sorry doesn't cut it. Strength is what people need, pain is enormously hard to deal with, but the strong make it. Honestly, I loved it. The emotion is real and intense and that's what makes a poem so great to read, as sad as the topic may be. Wonderful job