Solace in Silent Tears

[Absinthe]

[glow=black,2,300]I wrote this just a little while ago. My father and I haven't the best relationship by any means. Tonight, like many other nights, his scorn and his piercing words brought me to tears. This is simply something to try and relieve a bit of emotion




Closed up in my room,
I find solace in my silent tears.
It shouldn't be so easy
for you to bring them forth.

Your snide remarks
and looks of contempt
cut me to the core,
why do I deserve such scorn?

I've done everything
that you've asked
been your perfect little scholar
and still you dismiss me

I put on a good show for
the people you are trying to impress
and for a brief moment
I think you proud of me

But the minute the public
has faded to distant shadows
I have displeased you again,
again incurring your wrath

My simple transgressions,
the cracks in my perfection
seem to make you hate me
to d**n the day I was born to you

And I've tried, so hard
to make you love me
but all of my attempts,
all of my efforts have been for naught

You dismiss me
ignoring my affections
acting as if I am nothing
I dont exist but to annoy you

And it pains me, when I am crying
knowing these tears were brought by you
Why can't you love me?
Daddy, why can't you care?[/glow]

[Sharon]

[glow=purple,2,300]perhaps he's challenging you and this is his way of keeping you strong- emotionally. maybe. i know i hear this all the time (though, i know our situation is different) and i know that it's sometimes hard to see but who knows, maybe. thank you for sharing this with us. i don't know about everyone else, but i know i can relate to this piece.[/glow]

[Only Me]

"And I've tried, so hard
to make you love me
but all of my attempts,
all of my efforts have been for naught

You dismiss me
ignoring my affections
acting as if I am nothing
I dont exist but to annoy you

And it pains me, when I am crying
knowing these tears were brought by you
Why can't you love me"
reminds me of something.... hmm let me think... oh yea... my mom. I have tried for years to get her to love me and be proud of me... hmmmm me likes...

[Samccaleb]

This was very well written. I can feel the emotion behind it and the thought you put into it. Great job in writing and thank you for sharing this with us.

[Laura]

"I've done everything
that you've asked
been your perfect little scholar
and still you dismiss me"

--it was kind of the opposite with me. I always thought my dad was disappointed in me because I wasn't a perfect student in school and my sister and brother were getting really good marks. I hated the feeling, too.