Post by QueenPaige4 on Dec 21, 2012 20:31:48 GMT -6
Lord knows I have a lot of scars
Some well healed
Most not so much
Some have reopened and have been left bleeding
No longer able to heal again
Salt is being poured into each open wound
One by one
She pours it in like it's her job
She's so amused
Laughing as I'm screaming
I'm yelling at her to stop
Why are we friends?
You pretend to care
As the scars from our previous friendship reopen
I wonder why I put myself through this
Why do I trust you?
Why do I let you in?
Didn't I learn anything from before?
You hurt me once, shame on you
You hurt me twice, shame on me
Third time is the charm
Maybe now I'll learn that you mean harm
I just don't understand why you do these things to me
Why you hurt me unintentionally by your words left unspoken and your thoughts inside your head?
I've had enough of your head games
And I try to read your mind
But I'm never going to know how you feel about our friendship if you just lie
I'm never going to know what you think if you don't say anything
If you keep things to yourself
If you don't say what you need to say to me
Sometimes I wish I could say this to your face
That I wasn't a coward in every way
I wish I didn't feel like I'm the only good friend you have
That I need this to work because we deserve to be friends
But I was wrong, so wrong
You don't deserve my friendship
I don't need this pain, this sorrow
I wish you weren't so oblivious to the things you do
I know I'm no innocent
But neither are you
Maybe we shouldn't be friends
Maybe we aren't meant to be friends
Maybe you don't care
Maybe I don't care
Whatever
I'm over it
I'm over you
I'm over this
I'm sorry
Our lives will continue without each other
We don't need each other
At least I don't and never did need you
You are the one who needed me
You are the one who came to me
Who contacted me
Who wanted to be friends again
I was just stupid enough to believe you were different
That things would be different
Look at what I've done
I hurt you
You hurt me with the words you couldn't say, you wouldn't say
With the way you acted towards me that day
Why do we put ourselves through this much pain?
Why do I care so much?
I shouldn't but I do
Do you care or is this all pretend?
Make believe so I believe you care?
That I have someone that understands which in fact I don't
I shouldn't have let you in
and I wish I could take this all back.
Some well healed
Most not so much
Some have reopened and have been left bleeding
No longer able to heal again
Salt is being poured into each open wound
One by one
She pours it in like it's her job
She's so amused
Laughing as I'm screaming
I'm yelling at her to stop
Why are we friends?
You pretend to care
As the scars from our previous friendship reopen
I wonder why I put myself through this
Why do I trust you?
Why do I let you in?
Didn't I learn anything from before?
You hurt me once, shame on you
You hurt me twice, shame on me
Third time is the charm
Maybe now I'll learn that you mean harm
I just don't understand why you do these things to me
Why you hurt me unintentionally by your words left unspoken and your thoughts inside your head?
I've had enough of your head games
And I try to read your mind
But I'm never going to know how you feel about our friendship if you just lie
I'm never going to know what you think if you don't say anything
If you keep things to yourself
If you don't say what you need to say to me
Sometimes I wish I could say this to your face
That I wasn't a coward in every way
I wish I didn't feel like I'm the only good friend you have
That I need this to work because we deserve to be friends
But I was wrong, so wrong
You don't deserve my friendship
I don't need this pain, this sorrow
I wish you weren't so oblivious to the things you do
I know I'm no innocent
But neither are you
Maybe we shouldn't be friends
Maybe we aren't meant to be friends
Maybe you don't care
Maybe I don't care
Whatever
I'm over it
I'm over you
I'm over this
I'm sorry
Our lives will continue without each other
We don't need each other
At least I don't and never did need you
You are the one who needed me
You are the one who came to me
Who contacted me
Who wanted to be friends again
I was just stupid enough to believe you were different
That things would be different
Look at what I've done
I hurt you
You hurt me with the words you couldn't say, you wouldn't say
With the way you acted towards me that day
Why do we put ourselves through this much pain?
Why do I care so much?
I shouldn't but I do
Do you care or is this all pretend?
Make believe so I believe you care?
That I have someone that understands which in fact I don't
I shouldn't have let you in
and I wish I could take this all back.