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Post by Only Me on Nov 14, 2007 19:36:38 GMT -6
When left alone my mind starts wandering Remembering the night you were stolen from me From the safety and warmth of my womb
Your daddy and I weren't excited enough We didn't know what we were going to do There were nights I wished you never happened Now I lie awake every night Remembering the night you were stolen from me Wishing I hadn't lain awake all those nights cursing your existence
I wanted to hold you in my arms Rocking you to sleep I wanted to sing you lullabyes Cuddle you and play I was just getting used to the idea of you When suddenly you were ripped away God had different plans for us A reason for taking you from me
My heart hurts now Remembering the night you were stolen from us I wonder what you would have been A boy or girl, a doctor a lawyer, a deli clerk?
I just wish you hadn't been taken from me I didn't stay in bed enough Didn't take my vitamins like I should have I didn't eat like you needed me to To get your little heart the nutrients it needed
I took too many pain killers When reality began to hit I blame myself everyday I didn't take care of you like a mommy is supposed to do Your daddy tried everything to take care of us Just to keep you safe from Grimm's grasp I let you both down, now I sit here all alone Remembering the night you were stolen from us.
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Post by Absinthe on Nov 14, 2007 20:36:14 GMT -6
This was kind of intense. Technically, not great, but emotionally fantastic. THe line:
"I let you both down"
. . . is so hard-hitting. Simple, yet so painful to think on.
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Post by Only Me on Nov 15, 2007 0:44:14 GMT -6
... it was one of those moments where I just needed to write. Its horrible actually. Its probably the worst thing I've ever written, but its the first thing I've written in a VERY long time, so I thought I'd post it.
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Post by Absinthe on Nov 15, 2007 12:21:48 GMT -6
It's not horrible. And trust me, I completely understand the need to just write something. Most of my recent stuff has been in spurts simply because I had to either write or risk implosion. I'm glad you posted this.
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