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Post by Only Me on Aug 27, 2005 23:20:48 GMT -6
I wrote this a few years ago when I found out my mother was once again using drugs. I read the date on it and I wrot eit on Christmas day of 99... Instead of spending Christmas with us kids that year she went to the bar on Christmas Eve and didnt come home for a couple of days. [glow=black,2,300]I saw her drinking the other night It brought back memories of long ago Memories it took me years to get rid of I put them from my mind when she told me that she had quit They came back again last night, now to last for the rest of my life
I saw the needles last week It brought back those memories I found the mirror and powder How could she do it How could she bring those awful memories back?
She says she quit playing the game But I know she didn’t How could she ruin it all for me? She’s bringing back all those memories I tried so hard to forget
I remember watching her lie on the couch I thought she was dead but my sister said she wasn’t I remember lying there with her crying because I didn’t want to lose her She meant the world to me
Now I sit here watching her throw her life away like it means nothing How could she do it? I can’t answer that I know that I could not bear losing her now
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Post by Absinthe on Aug 27, 2005 23:24:06 GMT -6
[glow=black,2,300] I don't have much to say for this as I think it really speaks for itself. The emotion is clear and the story behind it, as you have revealed, gives it a startling clarity. It was a good piece. Nice job.[/glow]
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Post by Only Me on Aug 27, 2005 23:26:43 GMT -6
thanks... I was really questioning whether or not i should post these few pieces but got over it... I want to share my life I guess...
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Post by Absinthe on Aug 27, 2005 23:30:03 GMT -6
[glow=black,2,300]I'm glad that you did share it. And if ever you would like to talk, I'm always ready to listen....er....read [/glow]
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Post by Only Me on Aug 27, 2005 23:36:09 GMT -6
actually I am completely over everythgin that happened. I have used it to better myself. I don't blame myself for anything that has happened... thanks to years of therapy A few months ago I would not have shared this piece just for the shear fact that some of it wsa brought back up into my life... but that drama is over and here I am... today...
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Post by Absinthe on Aug 27, 2005 23:37:59 GMT -6
[glow=black,2,300]Godd for You! It takes a strong woman to move on. I know, because I have been trying for quite some time. Someday, I may get to that point where I can let it all go, but I know it will be tough. I hold the utmost respect for you, being able to do it.[/glow]
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Post by Only Me on Aug 27, 2005 23:49:00 GMT -6
you will eventually... it took me a LONG time...
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Post by Absinthe on Aug 27, 2005 23:51:46 GMT -6
[glow=black,2,300]Thanks for the reassurance. I know I will.....but as you know, its tough, a long and tiring journey. I'll get there someday....I just know it.[/glow]
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Post by Only Me on Aug 27, 2005 23:56:44 GMT -6
the best thing to always remember is that once you have hit rock bottom there is no where to go but up... i know it is so cliche... but it has helped me get over a lot of hurdles...
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Post by Absinthe on Aug 28, 2005 0:00:16 GMT -6
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Post by Sharon on Dec 20, 2005 21:19:13 GMT -6
the best thing to always remember is that once you have hit rock bottom there is no where to go but up... i know it is so cliche... but it has helped me get over a lot of hurdles... [glow=purple,2,300]that is sooo true. i feel the same way though when i feel like i'm on top of the world. i get all cautious because... when you reach the highest point you can go.. there's no where else to go but down. it's funny how life tends to keep thing in balance... not haha kind of funny but well you know what i mean.[/glow]
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Post by Only Me on Jan 19, 2006 1:26:24 GMT -6
that is all too true Sharon. There really is no where to go but down once you ahve hit the peak. lol. It truly is ironic how when life thows us a fast one, it always throws a slow one after we strike out on the fast one, or vise versa. Sort of a balancing act between two worlds... what goes up must come down and what goes down, can either stay down or bounce right back up again depending on how much zing it has left....
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