A new kind of drug

[Angelamongsociety]

Another tear, another sleepless night and some more heartache.

I lay on my bed and think of what you just said as I hang up the phone.

And I question if you really even meant a single word.

This kind of abuse is something I am use to.

My hands start to shake and my heartbeat starts to quicken.

My stomach feels weak and my mouth feels so dry.

I pick up the bottle knowing that this is wrong.

But right now this is the only comfort I can find.

Before long the bottle is empty and my happiness is found at the bottom.

This high kind of feeling only lasts a while, but it keeps me occupied.

After all it is you, just a boy to everyone else, but my whole world.

As the intoxication wears off, I glance at the mirror.

Then run to the bathroom .... I sicken myself, I am ashamed of what I've become.

I go back to my bedroom and look at the clock.

It's 3 am and I wonder if your really in bed or are you talking to her.

Telling her all the words I long so desperately to hear.

If you are asleep, am I haunting your dreams?

No, after all I am just a girl to you right, nothing more.

I know I must stop this, but I can never find enough strength to.

After all, this bottle is the reason I even bother to wake up at all.

I close my eyes and wait till the morning light wakes me up.

Only I do not get out of bed, I just sit there and look out the window.

Why bother even getting up anymore?

The one I lived for has left me dead.

[QueenPaige4]

wow this was very good so wonderful i loved it
"It's 3 am and I wonder if your really in bed or are you talking to her.

Telling her all the words I long so desperately to hear."

that is exactly how i feel right now...

[thecrazybeautiful]

"If you are asleep, am I haunting your dreams?"

That's kind of a shivery line. But I like it.

This whole thing together seemed more like a real story than a poem. And the idea is quite common. But, yeah, I really don't have much else to say about it.

[lanaia74]

VERY well done!