Faithless Father

[Laura]

I'm not going to church today,
I know you're there
bending down at your knees
won't you say a prayer for me?

you always say you love me so.

where are the children you sent downstairs?
are their hands filthy too
like yours they're sticky

I'm coming unglued at the hands of you

won't you f**k me one more time
with feeling,
with passionate desire that I am not a lover
but a teenager with no fire in her eyes

you fuel it but I never burn.

I know you're staring at me
say your sermons
it is your right to stand up for what you believe in
cry out in shameless sighs

"in God we trust"
now hate I love
there's no good left in us.

you can bleed out all your sins inside me
you can think I am your soil to plant in
I will never birth this.

this irresponsible "God has given us all of this"
your hands are fumbling with yourself

I see your mirror, I see you tearing at the flesh
what's underneath, what you want inside me
I know you want to scrub my girlish skin

but what girl is left in me after this?

you have made me nothing but a man
a stupid f**k**g man, you know a father
to a motherless prick who is a bastard son
of a bastard Father, will you help me f**k this away?

will you help me grub my hands up with dirt
and unfeeling,

you have left me.

I hope you remember what this is for -

faith.

[thecrazybeautiful]

Wow. That's strong.

"I know you want to scrub my girlish skin

but what girl is left in me after this?"

Made me shiver. It's very eerie, but good in that...eerie-poem way.

[lanaia74]

Totally AWESOME!

[Absinthe]

"in God we trust"
now hate I love
there's no good left in us.

...............This I love. That part just jumped out at me. The whole poem is fantastic...brutal, harsh, unforgiving.......wonderful

Oh and this:

but a teenager with no fire in her eyes

you fuel it but I never burn.


...........adoring. I love the phrasing of that second line, it just flows so well. Great write