The Child Cries Alone

[Only Me]

[glow=red,2,300]The child cries alone,
In her closet hiding from them
From the many who enter her room
From the many who look for her
From the many who hurt her
The child cries alone
In her closet, wishing them away
Those who enter her room
Those who look for her
Those who wish her harm
The child cries alone
Alone in her closet praying to a god
A god she is unsure of
A god she wants to believe in so badly
A god who can take away her pain
The child cries alone
Alone in her closet wanting to die
To run away from her pain
To run away to safety
To run away to a new beginning
The child cries alone
In her closet holding her baby sister
Protecting from those who enter her room
Protecting her from those who look for them
Protecting her from those who want to hurt them
The child cries alone
Leaving her closet knowing the only way to protect her sister
The only way to protect her sister is to offer herself
As long as they have her, the sister will never be harmed[/glow]

[BRÓKÉÑ MÁÑ]

Wow!! I am curious, was this based on a personal experience, if you dont mind answering that is. I was molested by my brother growing up, and when that wasnt happening I was being physically, or verbally abused from my adopted dad. So your poem hit me a little close to home. Very intense, and just extremely incredible.

[Only Me]

thank you... and yes it was partially on personal experience and partially on something someone else told me...

[Absinthe]

[glow=black,2,300] That was.......difficult to read, but extraordinarily draws you in. Does that make any sense at all? I'm not sure how to phrase what I think of this.....just take that as a compliment, because I cant think in a good way.

Um, yeah....no sense at all from me.........yeah, good job. [/glow]

[Only Me]

i think i am getting what you are saying... like it was good but a horrible story? maybe? I was in a rut when i wrote it as memories of my childhood kepts coming back to me. Anyways, I was thinking of taking this piece off of SD... ? I think part of it is that I do not like confronting my past. Which since i wrote this piece it has added to my anguish...

[Laura]

"The child cries alone
Alone in her closet praying to a god
A god she is unsure of
A god she wants to believe in so badly
A god who can take away her pain"

--this used to be me when I was Agnostic. The story is sad.

[Only Me]

it is me right now... My husband told me that he doesn't know me anymore becuase I believed in his god when we got married, but now I am not so sure. It almost caused our divorce... but yea. I didn't believe in a god until I was taken out of my child hood situation. I believed until recently... I had my doubts but I never questioned it because by a miracle I was rescued out of that horrible place... I am thankful for whatever force took me out of that situation. But I don't know if it was his god... becuase his god wouldn't have put me into the situation that i am in now... ? does that make sense?

[Laura]

I don't know if it makes sense. If it makes sense to you ... well. I don't believe, I'm Atheist, but I can see people who do believe having doubts, obviously. I went from believing to don't know to not at all. It's just that way for some people. Some go their whole life believing, some go without, some go starting with and ending without, some start without and end up believing. It's crazy.

[Only Me]

yea... it makes sense to me but I get what you are saying there. I have gone from being told I believe to knowing that I didn't to being told still, to believing, to not believing then back to believing and now I am not so sure... I have been preached at my entire life and told that not believing is unacceptable... I think things are only real if you belive that they are... and I do not believe in a heaven and a hell... My family does, my friends do, but I just dont. It just does not make sense to me I guess... Like who is the one to set the rules of what is good and bad? humans must have sex to keep the world going, but they say we can only have sex with one person and that person must be the person we are married to... but marriage is a piece of paper and a vow to never sleep with another person and yet it is inborn for us to want to have sex with more than one person. So am I going to go to hell because before i met my husband I had 5 or 6 other lovers? I don't smoke or drink, I would never harm another person intentionally, I try not to lie or cheat... But will I "burn for eternity" just because I have slept with more than just my husband... ?