Post by Only Me on Aug 27, 2005 23:11:13 GMT -6
I wrote this one shortly after a good friend comitted suicide. I felt it was my fault because I thought there wsa somehting more i could have done. years later I realized that there was nothing I could have done for her. I guess I was kind of mad at her when i wrote this. Mad at her for leaving me behind I guess, I am not sure... anyways please r & r...
[glow=black,2,300]I know you are all suffering
I only meant to end my own pain
I thought it would make your lives easier
It was really only to get back at one person
I didn’t realize I would hurt all of you as well
I tied a rope around my neck and jumped off the chair
It was painful but it didn’t get the job done
I cut my wrists with a carving knife
Someone found me just before I saw the bright light
I took the entire bottle of those pills you gave me for depression
I woke up a few days later with you all around me
A couple weeks later everything was back to normal
I found a gun in the back closet
This time it must have worked because I can see you all standing around a box
I am lying in the box, the lid is closed but somehow I know it is me
Seeing you all like this is worse than anything I have ever endured
I just want you all to know
It was my choice
I just could not take it anymore
Daddy, I hope I’m still your baby girl
Mommy, please forgive me I am really sorry
It wasn’t your fault I know I was the one who started the fight
I chose to take my life
I chose to pull the trigger
Just thought you would want to know
What I did has caused you all to suffer
But it doesn’t mean I hate you
It means I hated myself
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[glow=black,2,300]I know you are all suffering
I only meant to end my own pain
I thought it would make your lives easier
It was really only to get back at one person
I didn’t realize I would hurt all of you as well
I tied a rope around my neck and jumped off the chair
It was painful but it didn’t get the job done
I cut my wrists with a carving knife
Someone found me just before I saw the bright light
I took the entire bottle of those pills you gave me for depression
I woke up a few days later with you all around me
A couple weeks later everything was back to normal
I found a gun in the back closet
This time it must have worked because I can see you all standing around a box
I am lying in the box, the lid is closed but somehow I know it is me
Seeing you all like this is worse than anything I have ever endured
I just want you all to know
It was my choice
I just could not take it anymore
Daddy, I hope I’m still your baby girl
Mommy, please forgive me I am really sorry
It wasn’t your fault I know I was the one who started the fight
I chose to take my life
I chose to pull the trigger
Just thought you would want to know
What I did has caused you all to suffer
But it doesn’t mean I hate you
It means I hated myself
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