The night you were stolen

[Only Me]

When left alone my mind starts wandering
Remembering the night you were stolen from me
From the safety and warmth of my womb

Your daddy and I weren't excited enough
We didn't know what we were going to do
There were nights I wished you never happened
Now I lie awake every night
Remembering the night you were stolen from me
Wishing I hadn't lain awake all those nights cursing your existence

I wanted to hold you in my arms
Rocking you to sleep
I wanted to sing you lullabyes
Cuddle you and play
I was just getting used to the idea of you
When suddenly you were ripped away
God had different plans for us
A reason for taking you from me

My heart hurts now
Remembering the night you were stolen from us
I wonder what you would have been
A boy or girl, a doctor a lawyer, a deli clerk?

I just wish you hadn't been taken from me
I didn't stay in bed enough
Didn't take my vitamins like I should have
I didn't eat like you needed me to
To get your little heart the nutrients it needed

I took too many pain killers
When reality began to hit
I blame myself everyday
I didn't take care of you like a mommy is supposed to do
Your daddy tried everything to take care of us
Just to keep you safe from Grimm's grasp
I let you both down,
now I sit here all alone
Remembering the night you were stolen from us.

[Absinthe]

This was kind of intense. Technically, not great, but emotionally fantastic. THe line:

"I let you both down"

. . . is so hard-hitting. Simple, yet so painful to think on.

[Only Me]

... it was one of those moments where I just needed to write. Its horrible actually. Its probably the worst thing I've ever written, but its the first thing I've written in a VERY long time, so I thought I'd post it.

[Absinthe]

It's not horrible. And trust me, I completely understand the need to just write something. Most of my recent stuff has been in spurts simply because I had to either write or risk implosion. I'm glad you posted this.